i hate the interweb.

i have been sitting here at my desk staring at an empty text box for five minutes now with tears rolling down my cheeks and manchester orchestra ringing in my ears.

and the only thing i can think of to say is

everyone who says that these years are the best years of your life is completely delusional.



i wish i could start all over again.
move to a new place
start studying something i actually like
meet all different kinds of people
become acquainted with a new place

there are good things in my life right now, and i'm trying so hard to acknowledge and show gratitude for them,
but that doesn't seem like enough anymore.


i don't know what else to do
other than listen to this song on repeat
close my eyes
and wish i were somewhere else.