ayudame.

so, it's been a rough couple of days.
the work is still great,
cuenca is still beautiful,
i still relish every second i have here,
but for whatever reason, i'm in a slump.

i miss my family,
reliable showers,
curry,
smelling good,
kitchen table talks,
slurpees,
english,
the cantrell/jorgensen ninos.

i feel inadequate, stagnant, alone.



and i think i'm done with living with fourteen other girls.


i expected days like this, but i'm surprised they're coming now instead of at the beginning.

things will get better. i know it. they always do.

1. tangos [delicious, delicious cookies (two vanilla cookies with chocolate inbetween covered in white chocolate]
2. being able to eat lunch again [spaghetti and meatballs, cucumber and avocado salad, and rice]
3. seeing blanca happy
4. learning that just as toast always falls butter-side down, full diapers always land poop-side down
5. the knowledge that i can sleep in tomorrow.