homesick.

[very very old photo of us jorgensens]

Kings Of Convenience - Homesick by Nemnogo-kuby

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this is the fourth blog i've started in two days.

the other three are unfinished and will most likely remain that way.

it's been another difficult week and i can't help but glance at my graduation chain every five seconds, subconsciously willing the links to all disappear magically so i can leave this place forever and be with my family again.

i miss my family.

i think i miss them more this semester than i ever have in the history of my college career.

it's hard being far-ish away from them.

i was telling my sister how difficult it is to be four hours away from them because i know if i had the means i would go down to visit all the time, but i know, at the same time, that wouldn't be at all possible.

i'm so close, but so far away at the same time.

this distance has been a blessing and a curse, though.

i feel like the relationships i have with my siblings and parents have significantly strengthened over the years.

i appreciate them more now than i ever have in the past.

and although when i go home i don't show my appreciation and love for them as much as i should, i hope they all know how much i truly love them all.

i think about them every day, pray for them morning and night, and constantly wish i could be with them.

i really do have the best family in the world.

last night i was talking to some friends about high school and i was telling them that most of the time i preferred hanging out with my family rather than my friends.

that hasn't changed at all.

no matter what i'm doing or who i'm with, even now as a twenty-four year-old, i'd still rather be hanging out with my family.

it's comforting to know that even though i might feel a little out of place here, i will always have a place in my family.

anyway.

i'm going to stop writing now.

all this writing and reminiscing is just making me sad.

let's all pray that july 22nd comes in the blink of a eye.