alive and well

this will be very fast and pictureless.

but i just wanted to say five things:

1. cuenca is the most beautiful city in the world.
2. i feel completely at home here.
3. the weather is perfect.
4. the food [so far] is delicious.
5. i love you all so so so much.

i'll try to post an in-depth travelogue tomorrow with two [2] pictures.

until then, buenas noches from ecuador!

nerdnerdnerdnerdnerdnerdnerdnerdNERD!

after four nights of this...

i finally accomplished this...

wearing these.

this is what i looked like.

ps: did you notice the 125 max combo and amount of perfect/marvelouses??
yeah. i'm pretty cool.

"when through fiery trials thy pathway shall lie, my grace, all sufficient, shall be thy supply"

today was rough.
regardless of this beautifully-crafted dessert concocted [and consumed] by yours truly saturday night.

a civil war reenactment [aka a reenactment of my high school early-morning seminary days] occurred this morning.
add to that going to church with wet hair, and sitting next to a high-pitched, screaming baby resulted in the worst bad mood i've had in months.
YEARS, even.
everything annoyed me.
i was the grinch, scrooge, and oscar the grouch all rolled into one.
even after partaking of the sacrament, i was seething.

but then i listened to the first talk.
even though it's only been a matter of hours since i heard it, i still don't remember exactly what it was about. i remember him relating an experience with getting his eyes checked to having the right perspective in life and that softened me a little.

what really changed me, however, was a short conversation with an older lady who visit-teaches my mom.

i've only met her a couple times, and i, sadly, don't even know her name, but she knew all about me and what i have experienced this past year. she expressed how proud she was of me for sticking it out in rexburg for the summer even though it was extremely difficult at times. she asked me, genuinely, how i felt about going to ecuador and even though i usually just gave the same "i'm so excited" spiel to everyone else, i felt strongly to tell her how i had really been feeling. i told her how scared i was to go and how overwhelming this whole experience was getting to be.
and she looked at me with her kind, wise, electric-blue eyes and said, "you are going to learn so much and come out of this experience a better person."

i can't count how many times i've heard that since i decided to go to ecuador, but her words pierced me in a way that i can't explain.

i sat and pondered those words during the announcements and opening and practice hymns and felt a little sliver of peace.

then the lesson started. it was given by a woman from rwanda who lost everything, even members of her immediate family, and moved far away from her homeland to belgium, joined the church, got married, moved to new orleans, lost everything again in hurricane katrina, and ended up in orem for educational purposes only to pack up and move again [tomorrow] back to belgium.

she has known true heartbreak and indescribable pain. she has suffered through nightmarish trials, yet she is strong, steadfast, and faithful. her example and lesson about enduring trials with faith filled me with so much joy and peace that i felt like i could float out of the building.

and then, my mom's visiting teacher said something to me right before i left the room. she pointed to yvonne, the RS teacher, looked at me, and said "when you get back, if you use that time well and immerse yourself in service, you will be as strong as yvonne. good luck."

tears stung my eyes as i thanked her and i walked out of church that day feeling like the person who had entered the building a few hours earlier was a complete stranger [and isn't that what church should always be like?].

i am strong.
i can do hard things [as my mom always tells me].
there is joy in service.
have the right perspective.
there is love all around us.
we are known by name, watched over, love and protected by a higher power.
and, maybe most importantly, we are never alone.

these things i know to be true, and these things i know i will gain a greater knowledge of in ecuador.

"when through the deep waters I call thee to go,
the rivers of sorrow shall not thee o'erflow,
for I will be with thee, thy troubles to bless,
and sanctify to thee thy deepest distress"
hymn #85, "how firm a foundation", 4th verse

BFF!!!!

justin matthew brunson cardancing, 8 july 2009

this is my best friend, justin.

it was bestfriendship at first sight [of my hot chip album on vinyl].
i got to hang out with him today and it was hot chicken noodle soup for my congested soul.
thank you for driving like a thousand hours to see me, justin!

ps: i'm getting us these necklaces.
you can have the pink sparkly cupcake one.

grab bag parte dos

mannequin clandestine love affair
captured 11 july 2009
art director: justin matthew brunson

-three-ish days ago, i said the following:

"i have this theory that, when it comes to clothing, the phrase "i can't pull that off" is a myth.
i am totally wrong.
i definitely cannot pull this off.
i should know.
i spent thirty minutes making one and felt like a little girl when i put it on."

however, i forgot to say what "this" was.
i was referring to this headband.
i made one, as i mentioned, wore it to see harry potter, and i'm still not sure about it.

can you see me wearing that?
what do you think?

here's what i think:
if it were all one color, i could pull it off. i think, if i attempt this again [which i probably will], i'll use black grosgrain with black chiffon or lace or something not so... bedsheet-y [which is what i used for the buds on my trial headband].
but i just don't know.

-my pre-departure goal is to master "take on me" on expert on ddr supernova.
i will not fail.
i will conquer.
and i will take a victory lap around the family room if when i succeed.

-one time i had a conversation with my fellow jorgensens concerning food.
the following question was posed:
"if you could live anywhere just for the food, where would you live?"
i, at the time, chose the mediterranean.
pasta, gyros, pizza, falafel... what more could i possibly ask for??

but times have changed.
and i think i'll have to pick mexico.
i constantly crave it.
CONSTANTLY.
earlier today i daydreamed about an eighty-nine cent chicken burrito from taco bell paired with a nice, tall, cold horchata.

-a couple days ago, i went to the orem library [for the second time this week] to return some unsatisfying music and pick up some cds of artists i've recently discovered/always wanted to check out.
it was wonderful.
can i share it with you?
oh, i forgot! this is my blog! i can say whatever i want to say and you, the lowly reader, can do absolutely nothing about it! BWA-HA-HA-HA-HA!

[sorry. that was completely uncalled for. i just couldn't help myself.]

1. hello, dolly! original broadway cast recording
carol channing is simply charming. i adore her gravelly voice.
however, i have little to say about the rest of the cast.
i was expecting good things from the guy who played cornelius hackl, but i was left disappointed. there's nothing more disgusting than forced, shaky vibrato. ew.

2. ballad of the broken seas // isobel campbell & mark lanegan
isobel campbell's voice is sweet, breathy, and dreamy.
mark lanegan sounds like johnny cash in his later years.
but he's forty-four.
apprently he was in the queens of the stone age.
he was the lead singer.
i don't think i'll be checking them out anytime soon.
there aren't many listenable tracks on this album for me, but i enjoyed "(do you wanna) come walk with me?" and "revolver".

3. in ear park // department of eagles
these guys are a recent find.
and by "recent" i mean "this morning."
DOE is made up of grizzly bear's daniel rossen and his former college roommate fred nicolaus.
i listened to three songs on their website,
downloaded "no one does it like you" for free off said website,
looked up the band in the orem library database and never looked back.
if i could describe this album in one word, i would choose "spring".

4. smokey rolls down thunder canyon // devendra banhart
i've heard this man's name thrown around for some time now, i've seen his cameo in nick & norah's infinite playlist [twice], and i'm just now listening to him.
i got fourteen tracks into this album and had to stop.
i just don't know what to think about dear devendra.
every song is so completely different.
i do know, however, that i enjoyed the first three tracks very much.

5. "oh, you're so silent jens" // jens lekman
i love this man.
and i love this compilation.
when i was still in rexburg, i would listen to him as i rode my bike to and from work.
i felt like i was in a movie set in the 1960s.

6. perfecting loneliness // jets to brazil
my favorite.
i think i'm kind of in love with blake schwarzenbach.

7. friend // grizzly bear
favorite track: css's cover of "knife".
genius.
the rest of it? i don't know... i'm still deciding if i like it.

-right now i'm reading the actor and the housewife, shannon hale's newest novel.
i am a huge fan of her writing style [the first time i finished austenland, i closed the book, sighed, and started reading it all over again. RIGHT after i finished it! that's how good it is],
and that hasn't changed in this novel, but the story is just... weird.
i don't know what to make of it.
and i don't understand a lot of it.
i would elaborate, but i don't want to ruin the storyline for those who have yet to read it [or bore the heck out of anyone else who might be reading this].

-i am the proud owner of these shoes.
i feel like i'm walking on air.

-i took two quizzes for OSSO in preparation for my departure earlier this week.
as a whole, it took approximately 2.75 hours to complete both.
but it was all worth it.
it's really hitting me hard that i'm leaving and i'm scared and nervous and overwhelmed, but so excited.
all experiences that make me feel like this before they even start are good for me.
it's good to feel uncomfortable, to do something different, to make the most out of life.

south america will be good for me.

grab bag

jon and i shadowdancing outside of applebees, captured 17 july 2009

-i have this theory that, when it comes to clothing, the phrase "i can't pull that off" is a myth.
i am totally wrong.
i definitely cannot pull this off.
i should know.
i spent thirty minutes making one and felt like a little girl when i put it on.

-the past two days i learned that inspiration cannot be forced.
it either happens or it doesn't.

-today i ate the most delicious lunch. here is the recipe:
1. saute summer squash with some onions and garlic and cook wacky mac and ravioli.
2. eat for dinner.
3. put leftovers into containers and leave overnight.
4. at precisely 1:45, reheat leftover pasta and squash in microwave for one minute.
5. wash and slice a fresh tomato from the garden.
6. mix up pasta/squash combination and add tomato.
7. pour 1.5 tablespoons of newman's own garlic balsamic vinaigrette salad dressing over concoction and sprinkle parmesan cheese on top.
8. pour yourself a tall glass of water and bring outside to eat on the patio along with a gordon korman novel.
9. bon apetit!

-speaking of, has anyone outside of the jorgensen family heard of gordon korman?

-HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE IN THREE HOURS.
i've heard mixed reviews,
but i'm still excited.

-if you are a girl and have recently run out of body wash and are looking for a new scent, pick this one.
you will not be sorry.

-did i mention that i got a haircut?

you're a part of me and i can't wait to see you again.

so, i'm back home.

to celebrate my homecoming [and reclamation of my room], i slept in until eleven, ate chocolate chip pancakes for breakfast, stayed in my pjs until 5, visited the orem library [which was a little disappointing], and ate pizza for dinner.


i'm feeling better about not being in idaho.
it was really hard saturday and sunday, but i know why i'm here and i'm so excited to start this new adventure!

i spent the whole day [pretty much] unpacking and cleaning and organizing and de-junking.
it feels good.
and i like how my room is looking.
it feels more like my room instead of a guest room.
i like that.


au revoir.
i am off to work on a top secret project.

we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get.

beautiful people captured 17 july 2009

i've been holding them in since monday, july sixth.
i built a dam in my eyes and made sure it wouldn't burst.

but the sudden realization that another last had just occurred broke down the dam walls [haha] and the tears spilled over my eyes onto my cheeks.

i felt it.
another ending.

i saw my friends run alongside justin's car and i rolled down the window to grasp fingers and everything i had tried to hold in came pouring out.

earlier that night, i told justin that "up" had ruined me because i had cried in every single movie i'd watched since then, but me being emotional had nothing to do with pixar and their innate power to control my tear ducts.

the blame is all on me.


i have never had such a wonderful summer.

and i have the people pictured above to thank for it.

friends,
it was the best summer of my life.
thanks for the night bike rides,
scenic drives,
spray park adventures,
ramirez runs,
hugs,
laughs,
and sunday walks.
i love you all so much.
i told most of you that last night, but if i didn't,
please know that i truly, truly do.
love koko

on repeat.

nights over kortedala

on saturday i bought a camera for one dollar and fifty cents [not including tax].
so today, i bought two rolls of film for three dollars and seventy-seven cents [this is starting to sound like a mastercard commercial].
and my new project is to use up that film and take pictures of people and places and things i love [and will miss] in rexburg;
i'm really excited for this project!
so excited, in fact, that i don't think i will go anywhere without this camera hanging around my neck for the rest of my time here in idaho.
i feel like a tourist.
and i love it.

in other news, i never thought i would feel the way i do right now.
i have never [NEVER EVER] felt sad to leave rexburg.
usually i'm done with this place after two semesters.
but i came back for more.
and i'm getting to be so sad to leave.
experiencing all these lasts lately have really begun to hit me. i mean, i know i'm coming back in january, but that feels so far away [probably because it is].
it's like the end of an era.
when i come back, things will be different.
everything will be different.
but i know that it will still be great.
[are these words really coming out of my mouth fingertips?]

heard today at the rexburg opinion center

"i really appreciate you talking with me for this long, sir. it means a lot. ... i said 'sir'?! ... oh, i could've sworn i said 'ma'am'! i'm so sorry, i meant to say 'ma'am'!"

nice save, gretsky.

feliz cumpleanos!

today is my dear friend lyndee's birthday.
she is 20 years old
and she is marvelous.

she is always, always there for me.
she cheers me up when i'm sad,
listens to me when i'm upset,
laughs at my stupid jokes,
and constantly thinks of others.

and i'm so glad she's my friend.

love you, crazy toes!
happy birthday!

absence makes the heart grow stronger

captured 4 july 2009

i apologize.

i apologize for the lack of posts,
pictures,
and thoughts.

but know that this dear blog never strayed far from my heart.

after a small pyrotechnic display brought on by my computer charge cord
and three days without access to the universe via interweb,
i am BACK.

and i had a lovely time at home.
it was blissful, fun, amazing, and family-filled.

i will properly update with pictures and such very, very soon,
but i just wanted to let you all know that i am alive, well, and ready for more steady blogging.

ps: in three weeks, i will be in south america. how crazy is that?

с днем рождения!

today is kirk's birthday!

kirk is my brother and he is now thirty years old.

he is also a truly awesome brother.

here's why:
1. he picks up languages like nobody's business.
2. he has seen the world.
3. he is very loving and kind.
4. he used to have blue and purplish-pink hair.
5. he used to be in a band with a couple members of the all american rejects.
6. he is a very talented musician and can play a lot of different instruments.
7. he loves loves loves soccer.
8. he's super funny.
9. he has a lot of faith.
10. he introduced me to borscht.
11. he has the best music collection ever.
12. i'm pretty sure he was the one who convinced me that charles barkley's name was charles "broccoli".
13. he once rode his bike from his house in salt lake to our house in orem.
14. he's easy to talk with.
15. he's generous.
16. he stands up for what is right.
17. he lifts me up in weird family photos.

kirk, you are one cool dude.

happy birthday!

never can say goodbye.

i have always loved michael jackson.

one of my earliest memories involves me, our big gray van, and a restrictive carseat.
i was riding in the van on the way home from something and my favorite song at the time [besides the beach boys' "kokomo"], "abc" by the jackson five, came on the radio.
unfortunately for me, we stopped the car before the song ended.
i waited impatiently in my carseat for my dad to set me free so i could tear into the house, turn on the big stereo in the living room, and finish listening.
and when every buckle was unbuckled, that is precisely what i did.

earlier tonight, while watching a heartfelt tribute to michael jackson nigel lythgoe gave, i expressed my sadness that he had gone, and that his death was so sudden. in response, a roommate of mine said, "i'm glad he's dead."
i understand why she said that.
what i don't understand is the reasoning behind expressing joy at the death of another human.
what a judgmental, wrong, and disrespectful [albeit stupid] thing to say.

of course he made mistakes.
he's human.
he had no childhood whatsoever.
his dad was extremely abusive.
yet he turned it all around, made a success of himself, and became an inspiration to music-lovers, dancers, and people everywhere.

if i learned anything from michael jackson, it is that we are to love each other, care for each other, and do all we can to make the world a better place.
that is something to believe in and work for, no matter who you are.

baby michael jackson has one of the most powerful voices in pop history.
young adult michael jackson revolutionized the world of dance.
and his legacy will live on forever.

RIP MJ

"but they told me
a man should be faithful
and walk when not able
and fight till the end
but i'm only human

everyone's taking control of me
seems that the world's
got a role for me
i'm so confused
will you show to me
you'll be there for me
and care enough to bear me"

don't worry. i'm wearing sunscreen.

today is the first super warm, sunny, no-cloud-in-the-sky day rexburg has had in weeks.
the last three weeks of rain have made this place beautiful and green and full of new life.
it's absolutely wonderful.

i've really been loving pandora lately.
as i write this, i listen to my favorite sunny day station [camera obscura].
it's the perfect soundtrack for today.

did i mention that i'm writing this in the comfort of my own front yard?
it's perfect.

last night i played in the spray park again and enjoyed a quesadilla from ramires with salsa verde and pickled carrots on top.
it was the perfect summer activity topped by a perfect summer meal.

i'm really glad i stayed.

two things + one photo

captured 20 june 2009
while riding my bicycle

1. i am loving thrift stores right now.
this weekend, i purchased three new shirts, a pair of shoes, four albums on vinyl, a polaroid camera, and a book all for twenty-five dollars.

2. i just love sundays.

right away, great captain

disclaimer: i know this blog post isn't a card with a necktie on it or some crazy artwork made with macaroni and elmers glue, but just like those gifts from the past, this one comes from the heart.


me as a baby with my dad and a cabbage patch kid.

this is my very favorite picture of me and my dad.
the expression on his face and my near-consumption of a cabbage patch kid combine to create a beautiful photo.
i love that this photo captures what a great dad this man is. it captures the fact that my dad loves me no matter what.
even if i eat sidney the cabbage patch doll.

i guess the simplest way to say it would be to say that my dad is the greatest.

here are some reasons why:
1. he is extremely supportive of his children.
2. he is really, really funny.
3. when he was working at spokane falls community college, he got caught once on a weekend in his office listening to music super super loud.
4. he is young at heart.
5. he loves riding his bike.
6. he has a book on how to speak klingon.
7. he's really thoughtful.
8. he is really, really, really smart and loves learning.
9. he is the best teacher. ever. i've had many of his students tell me so.
10. he collects antique math textbooks.
11. he is a worthy priesthood holder and is always willing to give me a blessing [i ask for one pretty much every time i go home].
12. he loves songs with a good beat.
13. he likes his food slightly charred.
14. he makes the best aebbelskivers.
15. he is a great writer.
16. he has a great interest and passion for family history work.
17. he has been EVERYWHERE.
18. he can always make me smile or laugh no matter how upset i am.
19. he has a sweet tooth just like me!
20. he likes to experiment with food [i.e. orange juice + mint chocolate chip ice cream].

dad, i love you, i look up to you, and i'm very proud and thankful to be your daughter.

happy fathers day!

plaidplaidplaidplaid.

today
i went to DI and bought a plaid button-down in honor of aaron patrick mcgregor's birthday.
happy happy happy birthday, my friend!

two letters.

dear old secret crush:
justin says you are a pompous jerk.
crush ended.
sincerely,
kellie olivia jorgensen

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dear new secret crush:
when i saw you earlier this week, my heart pounded and butterflies invaded my stomach.
that hasn't happened to me in a very long time.
i hope that someday we can have a real conversation.
sincerely,
kellie olivia jorgensen

tonight was glorious.

i finally [FINALLY] got to play in the spray park tonight.
and it was even more fun than i thought it would be.
and afterwards i played four square.

thank you jon, justin, and ryan for making my summer dream come true.