part une

i really miss writing but i never feel like i have anything to write about.
i think i complained about this last time or the time before that.
oh well.

want to hear some jumbled thoughts/experiences i've had lately and then read a second post about a completely different topic?

okay?
okay!

-i think i've mentioned a student i have dubbed "the door guy" for confidentiality purposes before, but just in case i haven't, this particular student is one of my faves. he is so sweet and childlike and smart. every day he comes up to me and tells me a song title or partial song lyric to which i reply, "oh, man! i love that song!" and we talk about how nice the song is [whether i like it or not].
examples:
1. "you're beautiful, you're beautiful, you're beautiful it's true."
2. "have you ever really loved a woman."
3. "how much is the doggie in the window."
4. "bang, bang, bang on the door, baby."
5. "everything i do, i do it for you."
and my personal favorite,
6. "man, i feel like a woman."
number six was the most recent occurrence and the absolute funniest. i think he really knows that it makes me happy when he communicates in song titles because he always seems to do it when i'm stressed or frustrated.
i just love my job so much.
have i said that recently?

-i met with my bishop yesterday evening to talk about something and somehow the topic of marriage came up [of course]. he ended up giving me some very good advice and told me that i need to "get off the shelf" and just go after what i want. he also told me that it would be advisable for me to be a little more outgoing and actually talk to guys i find attractive because most of the time they're too scared to talk to girls. it was a very good conversation and one that i think i really needed.
it just so happened that my friend lauren was having a waffle party at her house that night, but asked me to arrive early and set things up for her because she had to pick her sister up from the airport and didn't think she'd make it back in time.
i was super nervous to be the stand-in host because i didn't really know who would be there, but i went anyway [with the encouragement of my parents]. as i was setting things up, the doorbell rang. i gave myself a mental pep talk as i walked to the door and tried to shake my nerves off.
and when i opened the door, there were five guys from our singles ward standing on the doorstep.
i think Heavenly Father's trying to tell me something.
either that or He has a wonderful sense of humor.

-this song has been on repeat lately.

i love this version of this beautiful hymn.
i think my favorite lines are in the first verse:
"unknown waves before me roll,
hiding rock and treach'rous shoal.
chart and compass came from Thee;
Jesus, Savior, pilot me."
such a beautiful message.

the music of the lower lights has really made me think more about the hymns and how they are a form of prayer and worship. "Jesus, Savior, Pilot Me" is a humble, pleading hymn. when we sing it, we are basically telling the Lord that we will go where He wants us. there is a true relationship of trust spoken of in this hymn and i just love it.

-i will be 25 in a mere two weeks.
CRAZY.
i remember when that seemed so old.

-disneyland is happening next month! and i really couldn't be more excited about that! SO psyched!